Crash!
I have been in a dream for months now. I have been allowing myself to believe that if I dream hard enough I will create a vision so strong that I will be able to will it into being. But you can’t use a dream to cover up reality.
I have used so much of my energy trying to escape this messed up reality that I have in front of me that I could have used approaching it. OK. But here I am. I am now basically a single Mom. I need to find a means of support for myself and my two kids in what feels to me now like an unforgiving world. There are all kinds of things about my present reality that I don’t want to look at. I have some growing up to do. I guess that’s what the world does. It offers you opportunities to grow.
The longer I let this go, the more opportunities I may lose. It is time to put my feet on the ground and my nose to the grindstone. But it really ain’t so bad. As I have mentioned before, I am warm, I have enough to eat, I have friends, and I do have a few ways of making a living, even though I am not going to get rich doing them.
And in the mean time, I won’t give up on my dreams. I’ll just use them to help me create a plan for where I want to go.
Now let’s see how I feel as I let the blood actually flow through my veins in the pursuit of hard work!
tagged: abuse, dream, ground, reality, work
March 20th, 2008 at 9:43 pm
Suze, I do not know much about your situation, other than what you have shared here on your blog, but I am so glad to hear that you made the move away from abuse. Many women don’t make that step because of their financial insecurities. I’m happy that you didn’t let that stop you.
You have a lot of strength and courage.
March 24th, 2008 at 7:49 am
Thanks Sophia. “I get by with a little help from my friends”.