Get over it, Suze.
I have been spending the last few days reading. I have been reading a book by Ervin Laszlo called The Chaos Point and I have been exploring blogs associated with Sophia’s blog, “Visions of the World“. I realize as I read and think about it that what I have to say in most of my entries has so much simply to do with immediate reactions. I really don’t trust my own intellect at this point. I don’t bother to engage it much. I am scared to take responsibility. I am a bit lazy.
It’s easy for me to conclude that it doesn’t matter whether I am engaging my intellect or not, after all, it is limited in its application. But everything is limited, isn’t it? At least everything that we each do as individuals. But that doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t use our full potential.
I guess I am going back and forth here. Forgive me, everyone. So what is it, Suzie? Are you going to sit and disappear into the emptiness or are you going to get on with life? Maybe both.
March 20th, 2008 at 9:47 pm
Taking responsibility in this complex world is a frightening concept. I remember the ease of childhood.
Don’t feel bad; I’m lazy, too.
But I wonder if we’re to fault for this laziness. Sometimes I think there’s just not enough energy to be anything but lazy.
March 24th, 2008 at 7:48 am
Thanks, Sophia. I’ll try not to feel bad. That saps my energy more than anything, when I get down on myself.
As for fault and blame, I don’t know. Those are loaded concepts for me right now. I really feel like self blame and blame of others is part of what keeps us in this out of balance see saw between attacker and victim. Maybe it doesn’t matter any more whose fault everything is. We all need to take responsibility for our own selves and help each other to do the same.
I have been in and out of depression for a while. It seems like it is when I remember about love and compassion, first for myself and then for everyone else, the energy returns.