Earlier, I mentioned what I believe is the cause of my distress. I since changed the post. It is easy to blame someone else for your own pain. It seems really natural to do so. But when it comes right down to it, what I experience in my world has everything to do with what I do in my life, what I choose to believe, and whether I own up to the choices that I make.

I am so lucky to be where I am now. I have some ideas about what I want to do which excite me. I love the friends that I am surrounded by. Connections with people are very important to me. I want to help other people find connections too. Music is so basic to me, that may be an avenue which I use, but making a living is really tough through art. My impression is that it may be harder still when you stay true to your heart in the art, but I may be wrong about that. I really don’t know much about it. I just see the glitz and surface sheen of so much of what seems to be financially successful. That may be just a perception I have.

I have been thinking for a while that I may use my music through special education: music therapy, I guess. But wouldn’t it be nice if music and other art could be used as an educational avenue in some local cooperative effort.