I have been concentrating for many days now on this blog. I enjoy it very much. I like the reflection that I think I see here of myself and my interactions with the world. But it is limited. It may be limited in its effect by the fact that it is words digitally transmitted. Granted, it has some effect, but certainly there is more to life.

It’s just that I find myself becoming lost in this world of the internet. It has great potential as a medium. And I think that the effect is generally quite positive. But, again, here I sit in my chair at the screen typing. Some of this is procrastination. I find this easier somehow than more material obligations that I have. Some of what I am doing here has real substantive positive intent. This process of blogging has, I guess, many of the benefits of journaling and may also benefit others as well, at least that is my hope.

But face-to-face interactions with other people are more powerful. You can read something on the internet and it only goes through you so far. But you meet a person and that can envelop you. At least this is my experience. I love this blog, and I will continue it, but I am convincing myself that the work in my community, through friendship and through livelihood, must be more basic to me.

As I already indicated, some of my attention to this medium is pure and real, some of it is avoidance of that which is difficult to me. It seems to follow the same pattern as many other things in my life. It may have to do with the integration of the abstract with the organic in my life. As I said before, I need to bring the love and attention to my lower chakras. To earth, home, money, emotion, whatever else is involved. But integration suggests the bringing together of disparate parts. I am not giving up on this blog, but maybe this will reflect a shift in my thinking further down from ethereal and abstract to the material.

Perhaps my readers will learn as I learn. This is a process that I don’t understand. I guess I will not try to understand it, but I will try to convey it as accurately and honestly as I can in the hopes that it will propel the process for myself and others.