Hello! My name is Suzie and I am a Star!!!!!
Yes indeedy, yes sir ree sir! Come and see me come and read me everyone because right here today you will be transformed by being in my digital presence! Just come to www.suzemusic.net and you too can become enlightened!
Shoot. Hmmm . . . I wonder. You see folks, I am feeling a little depressed in the past couple of days. And I read my posts and I can’t help but think that I take myself a little bit too seriously some days.
True, I love music. True, I focus on spirit, (meaning, I guess, that I try to and sometimes, I believe, succeed in seeing a picture a little bit bigger than myself). But it is also true that I hope to make music and writing a way to make money. Or maybe more accurately, a livelihood. I am not sure yet how to get around the money part. But how can I put all of those things together? How do I avoid “selling out” in one way or another?
Back and forth and back and forth between depression where I don’t allow my own humanity and puffing myself up within my own mind out of a sense of insecurity; I really do want the love and approval of my fellow human beings, but I guess I need to find my own approval first.
tagged: Depression, Selling out
February 13th, 2008 at 9:08 pm
Hi Suze,
I remember when I tried to make a little bit of money with my art, and how disappointed I became when they just weren’t selling like hotcakes. I didn’t really have any advertisement, which didn’t help matters, but I expected “if [I] build it, they will come.” So I sat around waiting for people to somehow magically find my website and start buying my art. After a while, I realized that it just wasn’t meant to be, and instead of creating with the hopes of earning money, I started to create just for the sake of creating, and more and more people came to appreciate what I was creating. They supported and encouraged me, and the love and approval I got from them in return for offering my art in an online gallery paid me more than money could pay me.
It could be destined that you will make a livelihood by creating, but I know that if you don’t, you are still being successful spiritually by creating for the sake of creating.
I hope for you that money comes from your efforts, but if it doesn’t, I hope you continue to be happy just doing what you do.
You’re such a wonderful person, good inside and out. I don’t know you very well but I can already feel that!
February 15th, 2008 at 6:50 am
Thanks, Sophia. Yes, when I create for creation’s sake it always comes out better. Thank you for your encouraging words.